Erasure

This morning I came downstairs to find that you’d thrown out all the pictures of us.

This poem originally appeared in Newtown Literary 13, Fall/Winter 2018.

Original photograph by the author. Video pattern image by Michael Dziedzic on Unsplash.

this morning I came downstairs
to find that you’d thrown out
all the pictures of us

but not just that

you’d thrown out
all the pictures of me
as well

as if you didn’t just want
to erase me from your life

(which I could understand)

but as if you wanted
to erase me from my own

maybe that’s the way life is

we walk through it towing
a giant eraser in our wakes

a magnet inexpertly
wiping the tapes

and when we look back
all that we see
(if anything)
are smudgy ghosts

a negative sea of them
clawing at the shoulders of a few
incisive, persistent peaks

maybe you’ve got the right idea
choosing your battles
and not leaving the process
to chance

I just wish
in this one instance
you hadn’t made
the choice
for—

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